Signs of nervousness dating
you break down and have a panic attack while they're hanging out with you? Teaching your new partner about the weird coping routine you have and absolutely cannot stray from.
Mine is talking to myself out loud and walking around my bedroom, and then having a snack and watching a very specific and very dumb TV show on Netflix. When they can't hang out because they already have plans, you're sure they hate you and will never talk to you again. Counting how many hours it takes for them to respond to a text.
It just takes you a minute to process that not everything everyone does is a personal attack on you. Timestamps are both a blessing and a major curse because now I have a metric I'll foolishly use to measure how much you care about me, even though I know (deep down) that it's wrong to do this. And while you're at it, you might as well compare how the tone of his texts has changed and start worrying that he doesn't like you anymore because he switched "lol" for "haha" recently. Having the inevitable first anxiety attack in front of a new partner. You don't want to be this way in front of someone you really like, but at the same time, you want to know that they can handle it well. Feeling like they only want to spend time with you out of obligation, not because you're a fun person to hang out with.
Because honestly it feels insane sometimes that someone could actually enjoy being around you. Worrying that you're being really annoying because you texted, "Hey, what's up?
" Basically you just feel like you're being too much all the time, even though you logically understand that it's perfectly reasonable and not at all too much to send someone a casual text.
Trying really hard not to push your partner away because you're just so terrified of being left by them.You want to be with this person, you really like this person, but every single aspect of really liking someone terrifies you, so this sad little part of your brain just feels like life would be easier if you never really liked someone. Realizing it's hard to be with someone who has an anxiety disorder and feeling really guilty about it sometimes.I know it's very annoying that I sometimes cry over something as tiny as accidentally burning a piece of toast, but I really do appreciate your patience and swear I am still a very cool person to be around.15 Trying to explain how it's possible for you to go from crying and exhausted to laughing and energized in a matter of minutes.The inside of my head is basically just a bit spinning Ferris wheel and sometimes it gets stuck on a weird mood for a minute, but things always keep moving again.16.
Dealing with partners who want to "fix you." They might mean well for wanting you to feel better, but anxiety sucks and isn't just something that can be fixed by a romantic partner.